Tuesday, 2 September 2008

Sarcasm

It was raining when I send my siblings to school this morning. Second day of Ramadan, 28 days to go before the Eid. The excitement that I used to have for Eid buried and chained within my subconscious.

I am happy but the environment I am in would made me look crazy. My relationship with my parent is in need of immediate repair. Mother had been sarcastic for the past few days.

"I dont feel like I am appreciated"
"I should enjoy my life"
"You should tell your brother that your look is no worst than he is" "
Your aunt didn't say 'back' she said 'travel'."

Those statements ringed in my head. I shuddered. I smiled. I looked elsewhere. It was painful but manageable. It took me few seconds to recover. I try to reason her ever growing sarcasm, Hormones and Stress. I vouch this as truth for she is now way beyond her 40. Working 3/4 of your daily life would eventually drove you to the edge of your sanity. 33 days. I can lived through this. 'Keep a positive outlook of life no matter how bad the situation is'. A reminder from within, a voice that gave me strength to feel 'now' with happiness and gratitude.

I looked at my old photo. It was taken 5 years ago. My skin was darker and my face was not defined. I compared myself with that Lisyah and felt grateful the way I looked now. I may not be a challenge to Brad Pitt but I looked better than I was before. Age does make one look more beautiful. A black duck turned into a beautiful white swan.... a thought that delighted me. Everybody is a white swan to somebody else. I haven't found mine yet.

"Life is like a spider web. Each thread brings different experience to your life but eventually all will end up in the centre."

Dont Worry Be Happy (^_^)




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