My life

Last night I was at my aunt. I love kids. They got this charm to blow away all my negative emotions. If there is a babysitting job for a dude, I would be willing to take it. Imagine feeling nothing but joy all day long. That would be superb.

Have you ever waited for something to happen and eventually it didnt? A good example is when you fell for someone and as a human you have the tendency to just wait and hopefully he/she notices you. The waiting is a painful process for those who experienced it. You are balancing on a thread that may or may not break. Sometimes, if not most of the times we tend to misinterpret things and come to a conclusion that would tear our heart apart. For example when he/she is nice to you, you got this idea that they may have little affinity for you but in fact its not. But then, how can we stop this waiting? I have a solution that worked for me and will work for you too. It is so simple that you wish you did it earlier.

This is based on psychological theory known as the cognitive dissonance. I would love to explain the details but it would be too much for the general public to understand. The purpose of doing this is to make you feel good for a short period of time and guilt towards that person for a very long period of time. And because of this guilt, the mind will avoid thinking about that person. As time goes by, the feeling for this person will fade away.

Give me an example Lisyah? Drug him/her and have sex with them. You feel good having sex with the person you admired but guilty because you did something against his/her will. What if it doesn't work? It will, trust me I know.

I started my morning meditation this morning. I really need to calm down. The mind had been tainted by negativity. My relationship with my parent is affected by it especially my father. I have no respect for him at this moment. It is a dangerous thing to have. Hopefully in a week I can achieve the long lost serenity I used to possess two years ago.

Have you ever watched a movie where in that movie when a person really like/love/miss someone, almost everyone that he/she sees is the image of that person? Have you ever thought that there is an actual truth to that. I've experienced it for the past few days. It drives me 'good' crazy.

To travel or not to travel? My heart says go. My brain says think again. My brain@ Logic presented to me these points for consideration:

1. Finance. Where do you want to live? How much will you bring? Can you really survive on the allowances without any other means of financial support?

2. Who will you go with? Isn't it boring to travel around without another person to take your pictures for you?

3. When? Do you want to put halt on one of your goals? Great body in 2 months. You are now moving into your 3rd week. Think my dear boy.

Then my heart says:

1. Finance? I am going to the travel fair this Friday. There must be a nice package for me that is within my financial capability.

2. I am going with.....who cares, with internet I can found anyone immediately.

3. Anytime.

So hopefully *Crossing fingers* I can get something below 300 this Friday. Or better win something from the lucky draw.

So what are the possible destinations?
Singapore
Kuala Lumpur
Shang Hai
Hong Kong
Tokyo
Bali
Sydney

Why Singapore?
Cause I got contacts there. Easier for me to travel around with locals. Besides my aunt is there, and haven't told her about my plan yet. Hotel 81 seems to be a nice place to stay.

Kuala Lumpur?
Cheap. Can use air asia. Sam is there to give me a nice hair cut. Free.

Shang Hai?
Cause I feel like saying it.

Hong Kong?
Zoey lives there.

Tokyo?
To find my *cough* wife.

Bali?
The xchange rate is very very good. Besides, chances of me bumping into celebrities are possible.

Sydney?
Visiting Freddy. But he said come September when he rents a new apartment. September is puasa (fasting month).


The cousin is having his engagement ceremony this Sunday. Hopefully its in the afternoon because I got something to do in the morning. I wonder why did he not choose 08/08/2008?

My hair, the black colour is fading. And I loved it.

After all the hard work of editing the pictures, I have decided not to post it. They are alive and putting somebody else pictures without their consent is considered stealing. I am not sorry that I don't post it, I can still indulge myself with their beauty till I get bored of their faces. I certainly need to consider my words next time before writing it down in this blog. And today post is another truth about scholarship allowance.

Brunei government is a very generous organization. Every year, an average of more than 100 scholars are send abroad to continue their education. Despite this generosity, some scholars find that the allowance given is not suffice to maintain their life abroad especially those who are bound to United Kingdom. There may be truth to this especially those who live at halls (I heard it can go up to an average of 110 per week). But this post is targeting those who live outside of halls...I love bashing them with reality.

Here is a summary of my living expenses in Birmingham, United Kingdom.

Allowance granted: 624.60
Private accommodation: 217 pound (There are rents that cost 200 and below)
Bills per monthly calendar: 50 pound (Depends on where you live and your daily usage)
Groceries: 50

Net: 307.60

I have an extra of 307.60. This is extra. The money can be used for anything. Yes, you read right, anything. I have covered all my living expenses. My allowance is more than enough. I am curious how can others said is not enough? I heard these excuses:

1. The transport. Traveling around is expensive. With the increase of transportation cost every year, our current allowance is not enough.

Our monthly allowance includes transport allowance. Using my situation as an example:
1 (a). My lecture are usually four times a week. That's 4x3=12. In a month, the transportation cost about 48 pound. Just take 3 pounds from the monthly allowances and go on with life.
1 (b). Buy a bus pass. The government gives an extra one month allowance every new academic year. I don't remember the exact cost of my bus pass, but I am positive that the extra can cover them.

2. We also want to spend on things. Things are expensive in UK. Everything keeps on increasing every year!!

2. (a) Unless you are buying things from branded outlet, the extras should be enough for your spending.
2. (b) You come to UK for what? Glamorous lifestyle or getting an education? Most choose the former ones. Branded stuffs cost an average of 70 pound at normal selling price. So stick to Primark or other bargain shops if you want to live in UK. You're not richie rich, because if you are you won't be complaining.

What more excuses there are out there? Most are silly and irrational. It shares one common thing, lack of money management. The presentation for new scholarship intakes will take place soon. May I suggest that the board of organizers to brief new intakes on financial management. I vowed on my experience that this skill is essential to survive in UK. Call somebody from HSBC or Standard Chartered to brief them. The presentation would then be of a worthy investment.

To new Birmingham intakes/ UK intakes

The rules of personal finance according to Lisyah:
1. 1/4 must be saved for savings
2. 1/4 must be used for your personal indulgences/ Cash in hand
3. 1/2 to be used to settle all debts and living expenses.

Savings
156.15

Savings can be broken down into different purposes:
1. Emergency
2. Traveling
3. Goal attainment (New books, New Ipods, New shirts)

etc, depends on your current situation, needs and wants.

Personal
156.15

Living expenses
312.30

Extras from living expenses can be transfered to personal or savings.

Need I remind you that this is based on people who lived in private accommodation. And to my knowledge, different types of qualification are granted different allowance. Lower qualification receive less, higher receive more. There are those special few who received a substantial amount of allowance that amount up to 1k. This post is based on normal MOE scholarship.

If 1/2 is not enough to cover your living expenses, increase the portion to 2/3. 1/3 is for savings and personal. Hope this little tip can help you in UK. If this is not enough still, the only option for you is to work. I don't know the exact rules of working under the government scholarship, but the pay is good. Ranging an average of 7 pound per hour. In a week you can earn an average of 140 pound [7x20 (The maximum amount of work hours allowed for student)] In a month you earn 560. University usually gives out temp work. For new Bruneian Aston university student please go here.

I forget to mention that if you intend to go back Brunei for summer next year you must start saving from the first month in UK. From the 1/4 take 1/2 of it, from example that will be 78 quids. In 9 months that would be 702 pound. That should be enough to cover your return ticket to Brunei. May I recommend Singapore Airlines. I heard the service is good.

Oh yeah, don't forget about boxing day....well if you follow the rules I set up, they wont be a boxing day for you unless you make boxing day a purpose. I think I had write enough. Hope this post is helpful to anyone reading it, particularly 2008/2009 scholars intakes.

Hello dear blogders (Term made by Xia Xue). Have you completed your ASF 2 form? Remember the form is due before the 31.08, Sunday. I have completed my form and will sent it on the Thursday. Why Thursday? Why not tomorrow? Its an auspicious day to do any work under Islam (The credibility of the source is questionable but I personally vote for this to be true).

You need to remember your tutor's phone number and email address. I was about to leave that empty but then remembered the emails my tutor send me from months ago (I never deleted any of my University's email since Christmas). Sometimes, laziness does pay you off.

On the third page, there are two numbers you need to fill in. The BS NO and the S NO. I don't know about most of you, but for me it was confusing especially the S number. I thought it was supposed to be my University Candidate number@ Student number. Najmuddin told me its the student number given by MOE. It does make sense.

To download the form click here . Remember, you need to submit your form before 31.08.08 if not you may have some trouble with your future allowances. You don't want that to happen do you.

To add on, Yesterday I submitted my exam transcript to MOE. A word of advice, try to give the transcript to the receptionist. I went straight to my officer and he said "Are you reporting to me". I am not certain if I was to take that seriously or as a joke because it was only two weeks ago I met him and he told me to give it to him. Unless I mixed that part of my memory with something else, I am positive that he didn't remember me.


Surprisingly, no one is blocking the road since Nonnie posted the picture on her blog. Now they are 'educated'. I went to body Jam launching yesterday. I was expecting three faces to show up, Nasreen, Chee Hwa and Cyrus but they didn't instead I saw Frankie (My UBD lecturer before I went to UK). He is cool. Unlike most teachers, where they usually pretend not to know you, he looked at me and said "You, I remember you". Then it took him less than a minute to remember my name. I seriously doubt other lecturers remember my name. I was hoping to catch up with him after the event but he went out early. After Body Jam, I did weight training (5 sets with 20 reps targeting major muscle group) and chatted with Nasreen for about an hour and a half.

I love Hip Hop!!!! Went to last night class under Lyza. The moves were hard to master in the class, after a few practices at home, I became good at it. I can't wait for tomorrow class. Its good to have Nasrin with me last night. I felt much more comfortable knowing someone I know was with me. Body Jam launching on Monday. To all members, please register for that event, the more the merrier.

Sorry to people who are waiting for the pictures. I am still editing. I lied about the penis and vagina. There are no such pictures in my possession, are there?. But the part I mentioned beautiful and handsome individuals are very true. That is why I always find my friends taste of their dream date ugly. So far, only few of my current friends can come close to these people. I want to name them but that would be rather rude don't you think? I fear somebody would commit suicide knowing that they are considered ugly under my judgment. With that said, you guys may find them ugly but mind you some of them are working as models. I never heard any agents hired ugly models but have you?

Obviously green is me, black is Yeong.

Izan was on Pilihan this morning. Two topics discussed:

1. Lost human touch. We no longer share secrets, feelings and so on using the old ways (Talking to each other) but use technology instead (Blogs, Text messages)

2. Human love to pick on others no matter how good they are.

I disagree on number 1. I blog because I want to communicate my thoughts to the world. That is still consider connecting. I have not lost my human touch. I can still affect people's emotion through the use of word. Individuals who disagree on that are either mute or plain idiots. Perhaps they don't know how to construct sentence that touches the heart. I pity them. Besides, blogging helps get lots of feedback. Instead of one, we can have many opinions about a particular situation.

Adding on, nowadays we can't trust anyone. If you tell one story, the story will spread like wild fires. Worst, most of the time the stories are excagerated. Its better to blog about it so people will know the true story and this eliminates the possibility of back stabbing. When you tell the story yourselves, you know that when people talk about it because you want them to.

I agree on number 2. We love to look down upon others. Making fun of their mistakes, behaviours and even their beliefs. I have proof to support this. Do you really want to know? Look back at my previous posts. You will find posts of humiliating others in an indirect way.

I went to Body Jam last night. It was embarrassing. Imagine a frankenstein dancing, I danced like that. Of course not all the times, there were some moves I am good at. But I was happy that I was able to follow the class without stopping. Aishah finally became a member of FZ. Its a relief to note that somebody from my batch decides to hop on the bandwagon. Met Nasrin (My Junior, met her during drama club back in 200?)

You know, I really hate certain kind of fags. The one who thinks that they are women trap in a mans body type. They are retards. We have lots of pretty women already. Why do they want to become woman? Male is already an endangered species. We are a dying gender. Increasing number of gays and transvestite will eventually impaired production of next generation.

Oh, have you ever wonder why Gays and Lesbians tend to be pretty people? Don't believe me? I share you their pictures on the next post. You will be amazed how pretty these people are. Of course, there are those who are ugly, I may also post their pictures here. I need to crop the pictures to cover the penis and the vagina.

45 seconds!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh

Went to the launching last night. 15 minutes through and I was out of breath. No energy at all. I can't even lift a finger. I am serious. That is no joke. I even went to toilet to do my 'business'. That never happened to me before. How can somebody like me had to shit during an exercise? Does anybody have similar experience? That was embarrassing. A huge woman was able to maintain her stamina throughout the session. I couldn't. Oh my lord!!! What happened to me? I really need to do cardio on a daily basis. I am going to the body jam tomorrow. This time, I'll make sure I can survive throughout the session.

Saw Mr. Rockwell. Met Aishah, Kitty and Ms. Vikcy. I was amazed how thin Ms. Vicky last night. No longer that 'healthy' accounting teacher. I was on the treadmill for half an hour. Surprisingly I was able to keep running the whole 30 minutes. Perhaps my leg is strong but my body is weak. No matter, 3 months should be enough to build stamina.

Arin posted some pictures from the HSBC party. Click Arin at the sidebar to view those pictures. I forgot to mention that we saw Howee Look A like. 95% similar with the exception of skin colour, his black. Howee is back in Brunei? I thought he was staying in UK.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 40 push ups!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are killing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hang out with the guys (Arin, Hanif, Lee, Mirul, Ziman and Mus). These people are crazy. There are mean. They are fun to be with. Nothing much to write about the event. Same like two years ago. Music and food. I was there for the food. Bring home an umbrella and a certificate. Oh I almost forgot the bottle my team won during the human scrabble game. HSBC decided to carry out three different games. I played two games. The balloon game and the human scrabble game. Do you know the balloon game? No, it does not involve real balloon, its the Malay Primary School game. How to describe this game? I have no idea. Things are hard to describe when it comes to malay games.

Did I forget to mention a bunch of monkeys dancing on the sand? Yes, they were lots of monkeys last night. I was surprised that dancing was imprinted into malay genes. I thought it was exclusively synthesized for retards. When I said dancing, I mean the dance where you just shake your body so people will notice. Oh and one more thing, I have great distaste towards show offs. Got this dude who somersaulted during a malay jumping game which he thought its the right the way to do but apparently its not. I bet he's from UK judging from his pants (Billalabong). Go figures. Typical.

Got a 'friend' who danced like....well let me put it simply an orang utan given a banana after a week of deprivation. Before any rumour going around, its not the peps I hanged out with. So Lisyah you're saying you don't danced last night? Sad to say, I do. But I didn't joined the crowd though. I danced with the crew. That was a good dance. A proper dance from an evolutionary species. I was surprised that somebody had to dress so little to show so much fat. Its utterly disgusting.

Anyways I just don't get it why would Bruneian in UK would rent a whole University flat to just Bruneians. That doesn't sound right to me. What's the point of going to UK if you end up with just Bruneians. To be with Bruneian is not a bad thing, but to be with them till you graduate!!! That is sick. Sure it sounds good at first. Less homesick, you feel like at home. But you bring nothing back from UK but a degree for which its knowledge is not of great value in real life. Trust me. Not everything you learn at University is useful in real life. Its the experience you bring back that matters. I really stress people to stay at halls during their first year. Its a huge opportunity to establish yourselves in the University environment. Why am I saying this? Because I have yet to feel one with Aston University.

Its only during the last month of my first year do I partly feel I am part of Aston. How so? Hanging out at a friend's hall was exciting. It is no different than hanging out at another Bruneian house. However, the Halls people I hang out with share with me lots of stories giving me a lot of new perspectives. For example, in one night with them, I knew what happened at Aston. I knew who died during last term. I knew more about the local stuffs with them. I also knew about Fossils latest product because one of the dude that night works there. See. Can you have this with Bruneians? No. So please juniors, do consider living in halls. You may also heard stories of people who complaints about unwashed dishes, dirty toilet. What do you expect? Its a student life. This can be easily solved if the Bruneians who experienced it just told the people to do their part of the chores. But what they do instead? Silent and cook themselves Maggie Mee in their room. That's pathetic. They just aren't bold enough to confront this people. That is why I have decided to make full use of my second year. Its time to take back what I should been experiencing since first year.

So a girl named Fatin had decided to go to Birmingham. Congratulation to her for getting the scholarship. But I was disappointed the fact that she rather stayed with the Bruneians than staying at the halls. I knew most would cursed me for saying that. There are lots of things you should consider before living outside of University. Hopefully you would come during the Gathering and I will be able to explain to you everything you need to know. Don't make decisions before weighing the consequences. In the end, its your choice to make. Honesty is the best solution.

Go or not to go? Body Combat launching at Fitness Zone Qlap. To keep fat or not to keep fat? Ok, better go.

Had another massage the other day (Wednesday) This time at the mall, Gadong. $20 for an hour session. Not bad. Love it. Planning to invest 20 per week for my 'little' feet. Settled my gym issue. Both of us (me and the staff member) came to a win-win solution. I am now a member till October.

My first gym this year was tiring. This was to be expected from the dormancy period. Went to Qlap branch and joined the conditioning class. Three males, one Caucasian and two Asian. I was breathless half way through. Met few familiar faces from Science College. All my juniors. If memory serve me right, I barely recall meeting any of my batch going to Fitness Zone.

The most pathetic reason to end a relationship is "Her parents doesn't allow her to go out at night, and I am thinking of breaking up with her" This boy either been injected with pig brain or perhaps a retarded ape whose existence is a 'waste of God resource'. I will do the same thing to my little sister. No night outing unless I know the boyfriend really well. The boyfriend must be descent and well mannered. I will not accept pretty boys with pig brain. If I ever found out a slight interest in doing sex before marriage, the boy's penis will be displayed in a glass jar. So don't ever mess up with my sister. I am serious when it comes to my sister. So boys, you better watch out.

Today, we went to Aminah Arif for lunch. Spend about 2.5 hours. After that, we went to Qlap mall. I realized that the shop selling Japanese product is no longer operational.

Watched Hancock. The film was funny. Not much of a brainer. Straight forward. We arrived late for the movie. Some people took our seat!!! Asked to show the ticket and to my amusement its just a normal handwritten ticket paper. We had the printed tickets. Father went to the counter and the lady told him that there was something wrong with the computer. If she wanted to lie, she should have come up with something more credible. I bet those people were given free tickets, I can tell that the dude was nervous throughout the clarification process. In the end, we were given better seats. She was lucky father was in a good mood. And lucky I was not in the mood to downgrade her existence. I can be mean sometime. Not all the time. 96% of the time I am a happy person. So no need to worries.

We decided to travel either to Miri or Labuan this 26.07.08. I can't wait for that day to come. It will come soon enough. Am still deciding which date would be the perfect day to spend my time in Singapore? This or that. I really want to go to Sentosa Island. That'll be fun.

I can't believe myself. I am going through the same 'religious' phase again. The second time in my teen years (Am I still a teen?) The logic side of me is battling the spiritual side of me. Balancing these two entity is my main priority right now. I can go haywire if I dont.

This post is centred around the word m.

Yesterday me and my mom went to Batu Bersurat (Rock with Letter). The purpose was to try the infamous Dr.Tron. I googled it and found no 'scientific' information about its claimed advantages. Some of the visible benefits said by users are:

1. Better complexion. (For this reason alone I wake up early in the morning to try the chair)
2. Cure illnesses. (I am healthy always. If you don't believe me ask the housemates)

So I thought this Dr. Tron was a complex chair like Ogawa massage chair. I was disappointed. It was a normal chair with an electric pad on it which was connected to the main electric box. I sat on it and I felt electric current moved through my body. There was another person inside the open room.

I had the feeling that Dr. Tron was meant to be used by old people. Uncles and Aunties who suffered health problems and love to just sit down their way to health. It was boring!!! The half an hour session was boring. 1 hour = $1. I should have brought something to read on. So does it work? I don't know. I can't evaluate its effectiveness yet because that was my first session. I don't know how many sessions I should do to get that 'complexion'. However, my aunt told us that according to an unnamed Indian doctor from the Hospital, Dr. Tron can trigger cancer. I don't know about you, I never heard of increased in the vibration of the body could induced cancer. Perhaps M.O.E should consider putting this down in biology. If this happens to be true.

After that, me and my mom went to Paul and Oliver. I had my foot massage and mom had her ear candle. It was ok. I was surprised that the shop is owned by my uncle. I never knew that he had interest in alternative therapy. Its 20 dollar for 45 minute session or was it less?

Truth to be told that I miss (Notice the present tense which really means at this moment) Birmingham. The people, the internet, the bus. 3 months to go before first semester starts. Kayun is now in Kuala Lumpur. Eena is emotional eating. The rest are doing their own thing. I miss you if you translate that to malay it sounds wrong 'Aku terlepas kau'. 'Puting Beliung' is malay word for tornado which in english literally translates as spinning nipple. I wonder if our nipples got to do with the origin of the word.

I don't get it, why would Astro use the term Bahasa Malaysia instead of Bahasa Melayu. Not all Malay speaking people are Malaysian. Sheesh. Can some rich dude out there make another company like Astro to stop them from dominating my TV? I hate it when my program is interrupted by a Malaysian commercial. Its annoying. It cuts down my entertainment. Also the fact that they cut certain scenes in a movie (Not just sexual scene) for example in pink panther the scene where they danced was cut the last time I watched it at Star World. I read the newspaper the other day and a girl (Forgot her name) who earned her first degree in Art should do something about Brunei entertainment industry. Make it more happening. With a blend of originality and modern world.

Oh, I almost forgot that they ought to be new students coming to Birmingham. Anyways, if you guys (New peps) need any help whatsoever, I'll be giving you the most unbiased response about Birmingham. So if any of you are interested to know more about Birmingham from the perspective of a student who spend most of his time with Bruneain leave a message on my tagboard. But if you want to know about Birmingham from the perspective of a student who spend most of her time with the 'Brummies', leave a message on my tagboard, I'll pass your message to her. I got this feeling that not many are coming to Birmingham. Oh well, who cares, its not like I profit anything from them.