My life

It is amazing how I manage to experience the turbulence of love within a week. From jealousy to downright insecurity. I am at wrong. I am sorry. You know I only have few weeks left with you, I want to make use of it. Perhaps I fail to understand you, No I failed to understand you. That is why grandma insist I consider your feelings for a change. You are the world to me.

You put your blog on private. Not inviting me, your own boyfriend. If you want pampering, I give it to you. I submit my will to you. (After God that is)

I believe that deep down inside you still love me. Know that I will always love you no matter how mad you are at me. I will never call this relationship off. Never. If my nini believe in our relationship, so can we.

My morning breakfast is not as cheerful as it used to be. My heart thinks of you. It feels pain, even now. I dream again last night. A feeling of forgiveness enveloped me. You forgave me in that dream. Everything went to normal again. I know it will. I must believe it will. It is this unwavering belief that keep me alive today. We have so much ahead of us to spent together.

Please love, text me, call me like you used to. I don’t know if I am able to survive this ordeal. If this is a test, it is the hardest test that has been given to me so far.

I will wait for you. Wait for you to believe that my love for you is as true as the sun shines during the day and moon glows at night. Can you feel my heart in yours? Its thumping irregularly. Hope and fear.

Almost a year since the last time I felt this pain, although the previous one was cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan. You came to me like an unbidden wind from the sea, bringing charm that petrified me, turning all direction of my life to you.

Please syg, talk to me again. I need you. Wrong. We need each other. What is an answer without its question ei?

Love.

p.s: I do this for you. I think Jajan will do it better than me. I had panda eyes from the tears I shed for you since last night. Yes, I cried. And it will continue if this situation continue between us.

Posted by Lisyah at 18:00 |